Let It Go

Although time has passed they still come to me

In my dreams they still torment 

Even in their death memories do not decompose 

Logic tells me I am no longer in danger 

My heart yearns to trust 

To give my all to another these thoughts must abate

There is no room for hate

Fear and torment will not be my fate

There will be a way 

I still have faith 

By, TJP 

Demons

They haunt the halls

Stalking the shadows of my mind

Turn around

Stay in the light

Pray

Stay busy

Hope with all my might

Still they find me

Sucking me into the darkness

Fighting to break free

Crying on the floor

Not real anymore

Begging to be safe, secure

Never knowing when they will come

Running always towards the sun

Avoid the shadows

Filling time

Simple tasks

Don’t run, just hide

Dreading when it’s time for bed

All my monsters fill my head

Toss and turn

Crying out

Awake, asleep

Filled with doubt

Scrub away my darkest stains

Look away to hide my shame

I’ll let you think that I am strong

The truth is I hide all day long

 

By, TJP

 

 

 

 

 

Fallen

I see you standing over me

Holding my breath

I know your not there

I’ve already left

Feeling your anger

On the floor cold and alone

Your rage washes over me

Your words cut me deep

I will not cry out

I can not sleep

No response will I give

I will not shout

Curled in a ball

I count to myself

If I can just hold on

You’ll burn yourself out

Fear keeps me still

I know what comes next

I can’t beat the chill

Searching for my next breath

Calming my mind

I stand once again

I may still fall down

But you will not win

 

By, TJP

 

Frozen

Excited for a gentle touch

Memories distract

Becoming too much

Backing away

No threat to be found

My body shuts down

*

Flinching in the light of day

Memories have carried me away

No longer in my kitchen

Lost in my mind

No threat do I find

As real as the first time

*

Standing on the sidewalk

Frozen in fear

Just because they stopped to talk

Need to leave before the tear

Praying they can’t hear

Willing my feet to walk

*

At home safe in my bed

Nightmares run through my head

Limbs feel just like lead

Terror holds me in place

Desperate to feel safe

Praying loving hands can replace

 

By, TJP